December and January have hit me like a ton of bricks, anyone relate pls comisirate with me?

I was expecting it and it still hit me like a brickwall. NC with my mom is still pretty recent, this is the second christmas. Honestly I felt missarble and alone, my partner has things(which also happened to be really triggering for me) with his family so we're both tired and sad.

On top of that we've had awful weather and a chronic illness that very susceptible for getting flare ups bc of the weather.

AND THEN MY DAD, WHO'VE I'VE BEEN NC WITH FOR OVER A DECADE. DECIDED TO ADD ONTO THE PILE BY SENDING ME AN EMAIL EVEN THO I REMEMBER BLOCKING HIM!!!! SO HE MUST HAVE MADE A NEW ONE PURELY TO TORMENT ME. AS IF HE KNEW I WAS STRUGGLING AND DIDN'T WANNA MISS OUT.

So yeah it's been a lot I'm missarble but also too aware that this will pass and I'll be fine eventually.