My friends make me so angry

Sorry I'm going to rant on a little, I'm frustrated.

I understand thinking this way is wrong, but I can't help but feel so much anger towards my friends. I spend so much time trying to impress my friends, doing kind things for them in hopes that they'll give me recognition and praise but they never appreciate me.

Every time I do something for them it's like they don't care about my efforts, I take time out of my day to spend time with them and treat them kindly just for them to not return the same energy. It makes me feel awful about myself and I just feel stupid for wasting my time on something that ultimately won't go anywhere.

All I'm asking is that they make it known that they value me and they can't even do that. It's like no one understands how to be a decent friend even thought that should be common sense. I want to lash out so bad but I hate the idea of coming off as vulnerable, I don't want to look stupid either.

All my friendships are so one-sided and superficial. If I'm not valued whatever I want them to tell me that so I can block them. I don't want to be friends with people who don't care about me or what I have to offer, it's their loss because I'm a better friend than anyone else they'll find. People really just want to waste my time so badly.