Sibling Jealousy (Loosing my place in the birth order) Bipolar type 2 Experience

at the age of 11 I was diagnosed with Depression and fed a ton of vitamins and later anti-depressants (bad Idea iykyk. I went years with the medication, never getting better, and the pandemic did it worse. My High School years sucked, especially Junior year. I didn't reach the milestones like all my peers did. I graduated as the fourth last in the GPA chart, Im still surprised I graduated. I go to community college doing online now and still don't have friends. My older sister went to one of the best schools in the states and lived 5 hours away, my younger sister is a top student in the school with a gpa of 5.0 and is living the High School experience I lacked.

Junior year I was diagnosed with Bipolar type 2 and Autism, I believe these diagnoses is what made my younger sister (By 2 years and a half) see herself as 'above' me. She got the license before me so SHE gets car priority, even if I have to go to work (which is 6 minutes away drive but 44 minute walk) In the Florida heat, she gets priority because she "needs the extra sleep before school" when I, with my severe depression pre hospital and post hospital took the bus at 6 am and got to school and waited till 7:30 for class to start ALONE. What is her excuse for having the car? "I have no one to be with, and I don't want to wait that long" (btw her friends live like a couple blocks down, they can drive her to school the days I need the car, and if not she is registered in the bus).

It doesn't matter what I do, my sister see's herself above. She is taller than me, more 'feminine' than me, follows the normal people trends, looks like Sydney Sweeny, acts like the average girl with her Lorax Costume LET IT GROW LET IT GROW humor (Had to convince her out of doing the Lorax costume because of how many people on tikt ok were making fun of them for being 'basic girl humor').

Now Im fighting a constant battle of trying to prove Im not jealous, I just want respect and to defend my middle child position, after all Im older, I lived through more, why can't she respect me?