My therapist is going on maturnity leave

Cw: brief mention of self harm/suicidal thoughts

My therapist will be gone until at least mid march. I don’t know what I am going to do without her. My mental health has been bad. I have reached out to people who harmed me. I’m remembering some awful things. I have been feeling so god awful without her. I don’t have anyone to fall back on. Yes I have my boyfriend and family but I need her rn. I feel so useless I want to cut myself or jump out of the window.