Worried

I think penetration ruined me. It looks wrong. I hate it so much.

One labia is more textured, and when i look inside it looks alien. Like it has scar tissue. The opening I mean, it looks not right.

Idk what to do, I’m not gonna lie my entire downstairs has made me want to quit more then once, my privates and other area looks disgusting. this time has been the worse.

Surgery seems is my only option but I can’t afford it.

No one would ever want me if they saw what it looks like.

I know discoloration is normal, but this looks like a freak show and it’s ruining my chances to ever feel comfortable.