Am I the selfish one?

Recently talked to irl friends finally got the confidence to let people I think I'm close to irl since when been hanging out alot. But it was my birthday recently and we were talking about after school and me I've had a bad plan since freshman year since a life of slave labor sounds horrible. But when I actually started opening up about life I was told I was selfish and told how much it would affect them and I should just live because it would affect them. I've decided I'm no longer going to open up even tho I'll probably be told to in therapy at least that's what I think idk still finals have me losing my mind it's so much work for projects in a week I hate presenting. I fire back that it was selfish of them to say that to someone in my situation that bc it would affect them I can't live my life but i understand it I shouldn't.