Ghosting Or An Honest Discussion?

For the context I am still processing information and my emotions to better decide on an action plan. I am wondering if I am the problem, if I am a narcissist, or if I'm playing the victim. My friend and I continue to get into frequent arguments or disagreements regarding my life choices or decisions. I feel like I am being controlled or emotionally manipulated. I feel like this friendship is a trauma Bond or a mother-daughter relationship. I realize ghosting someone or speaking the truth to someone is both hurtful. I had set up boundaries in the past but my friend decided to end the friendship. After a recent argument, my friend seemed genuine and sincere in her apology and I decided to unblock her but now I am seeing a pattern.