Just a remark

I had training this morning and got my shit nuked I am telling you. Normally, I am an extremely competitive person and would feel like total crap after that session in 30c weather.

But I don’t. I have competed in lots of sports but this one just feels different, I almost know that I can get better and I don’t feel like I am in that pit. Am I still a spazlord white belt? Yes, and I will be for a bjt, I weigh nothing and I am 5’7. I might as well confuse them before I get sat on in side control lol. But I know that will go. ‘Losing’ doesn’t feel like losing for some reason in contrast to other sports, it’s just become a lesson on how to retain my guard.