I dont really know anymore

Hey first time posting and sorry if there is spelling mistskes english is my secound ​language

So lately like last 2 years I have just felt numb emty and lost I dont really feel for things that bring me joy or happiness I just want to sleep 24/7 sense in my dreams I feel free , I got some friends but everyone live to far away to meet up with so kind of just lived alone for 12 years and only family meet with and think the lonleyness just take over more and more yearly, I have had depression/axiety sense I was 14 or so dont remember what it is anymore they switch names more or less yearly I do have fun playing games and chatt with friends but I also often feel alone even playing with them and guess the reason I post here today is if anyone feel the same or maybe got over this hill and can give me tips or ides, not done any self harm in 7 years but it really start to feel apealing , so yeah I am really bad at waiting what I feeling but hope my point come across xD