Deleting Reddit, turning my life around after fetish addiction

I’ve had a feeding fetish/weight gain/big bellies porn addiction for damn near 13 years. It’s been a secret but I’ve found myself becoming more bolder to not do it anonymously because, well, I’m depressed and lonely. And I kept thinking if I be my true self, maybe a model would fall in love with me. Yes, it’s stupid, I know. Anxiety, depression, OCD, ADHD. Mental health is in the gutter and I was so desperate for attention and I wanted to believe I was special. But I’m not. I know I’m not. And yet I keep tricking myself into believing I am.

I just signed a major deal and my life IRL is about to take off. Just moved, started a new job, professional everything is great. I just don’t know why my heart feels so empty—to the point where I try to make outlandish things work.

So today, once and for all, I think this is going to be my final Reddit cleanse. I’m going to delete this app. Because it’s the number one source for me.

Wish me luck, boys and men.