I think I reached my breaking point

Tonight my mom said something so hurtful to me that I don’t know how we come back from it. Over my 42 years she has said and done countless things that would completely justify me choosing to not have a relationship with her. And yet, I have always chosen to try and love and accept her for who she is, faults and all. Tonight she said something that I don’t even want to repeat because it was so cool, calm, calculated and absolutely devastated me. I am still in shock that a mother could think and say something so awful about her daughter. She crossed a line that I didn’t know was there and I don’t really know how to move forward. I have never wanted to be no contact with my mother. But I don’t know how I will ever be able to move past what she said and to not have it in my mind every time I am with her. It’s not like she will ever apologize or take accountability. She is a perpetual victim. I don’t know what I’m looking for by posting this. Just feeling really sad and hopeless. I’ve tried so hard to maintain some sort of relationship with my mom and enabler dad but it’s just so hard. If you made it this far, thank you for reading.