got laid off, feeling weird don't know how to face it

got laid off from my first company feeling weird, like i am scared, happy, feeling free, but don't know it's an weird feeling which I can't describe

Haven’t told my parents yet, i don't know how to face them, they're chill and very supportive, but they're too proud of me they proudly talk about me "hamara beta engineer hai, computer me kuchh karta hai😅"

can’t bear to see their sad faces