I might be living my worst life

I hit the 20th age mark of my life today, Ive seen people celebrating their birthdays like a banger for most of their life. Meanwhile, I can't remember the last time I had an actual celebration, most of my birthdays have been really dry, like just my parents picking me up a cake thats it. I dont crave social attention but don't I deserve even a little bit of love in here?! I live in a hostel amongst many people my age, they'd be celebrating their birthdays like a banger, meanwhile I? I just recieve a few wishes, and I dont even know when had I recieved any birthday gifts... Anyways, life's getting serious now, wishes on birthdays are conditional as well, If I dont earn it well or advertise it well, I'm stuck like this where I never deserve slightest of attention.