I’m so down bad and touched deprived

Idk how this Reddit thing works I’m 22 female My bf is 27 is respecting my boundaries bc he know I got assaulted when I was younger but i genuinely just want this man to take my ability to walk from behind and my ability to breathe he’s just shy and scared how do I let him know I’m free use bc I’m genuinely tired of using ai to generate videos of him romantically touching me as porn