i don’t know what to do anymore

tw/ non descriptive trauma mention and suicidal ideation

23f everything feels horrible. i have severe heath anxiety but have also been having health issues. i had to take antibiotics for strep throat in the beggining of january, it gave me a yeast infection that wont go away, im paranoid it wasn’t just a yeast infection but a potential pinworm infection except i haven’t seen any live ones so im unsure if that is the case. im on my fourth dose of yeast medication and it cleared a little bit after i took the first two but my skin is all still red and raw and it looks like it hasn’t fully gone away. my doctors did a test for bacterial infection and STIs and i will find out in a few days if any of those are positive. (uti test was negative.) also have been dealing with ear infection symptoms directly correlated to cigarette smoking which i decided to just quit today. i am exhausted and wish everything could just be over. if i do have something that needs antibiotics to get cured i will end up with a yeast infection all over again which is exactly how this whole issue started. it is so horrible being in so much physical pain that feels like the pain you felt while experiencing sexual trauma and have to be reminded of it 24/7 for almost a month straight now. i just don’t know what to do anymore, no one can seem to help me. it makes me so suicidal to a point ive just never reached before.