My hyperfixation/special interest rn is sex toys and I can’t talk about it with ANYONE 😭

DO NOT INTERACT WITH THIS POST IF YOU’RE UNDER 18.

Please don’t send rude/judgemental comments under this post. I’m sensitive and I don’t wanna argue with anyone rn regardless of your opinion on sex or sex toys, I just wanna talk/slightly vent/rant.

I’m an adult woman and recently I’ve become super hyperfixated on sex toys. Sex and bdsm stuff in general, but right now it’s mostly specifically sex toys. I wanna talk about them, research them, look at all the different ones, build an entire collection of them. I feel so obsessed and I’m so upset that I can’t talk to anyone about this at all.

I usually use discord to talk to people/make friends and when I seek out people to talk to about this, most of the messages I get are horny guys wanting to sext. Which I understand why it would trigger that response from people, wanting to talk about this, but it’s just so irritating for me who’s just wanting to make friends and have friendly conversations about my hyperfixation.

On top of that, I can’t even really talk about it to people I’ve already been talking to because they’d either judge me, or they would get the wrong idea and think I was trying to make advancements on them. Like the other day I was talking to my “friend” (quotation marks cuz we’re not really friends but I dunno what else to call him) and when I was talking to him about it in a completely friendly way he started telling me that it was turning him on. Like ugh.

And it, (my hyperfixation on sex toys) doesn’t even make me horny. Like I don’t think of toys and get turned on. I just like them, in a wholesome way?? I dunno. I obviously use toys to get off too, but when I’m thinking on them like this and wanting to talk about them it’s not because I’m horny.

That’s all, rant over.