22S1

Maine 2 saal bahut zyada mehnat ki. Kabhi enjoy nahi kiya—24×7 sirf padhai.
11th thodi waste ho gayi thi lack of proper guidance ki wajah se, lekin 12th mein main fully determined thi. Maine sab kuch sincerely kiya—lectures dekhe, proper notes banaye, regular revision ki, questions practice kiye.

Maine Eduniti Top 1500 questions (2025, 2024, 2023, 2022) complete kiye. Last 3 months mein 10–12 rough copies bhar di aur 40+ mock tests diye.

Jab JEE ka exam (22 January, Shift 1) aaya, main confident thi. Main Uttarakhand se hoon, mujhe laga state quota ki wajah se NIT Uttarakhand mil hi jayega. Exam center ke bahar parents ko smile karke bola, “Tension mat lo, aapki beti kar legi.”

Lekin exam start hote hi sab ulta ho gaya.

Questions bilkul unfamiliar lag rahe the. Pattern kisi bhi test se match nahi kar raha tha. 1 hour kab beet gaya pata hi nahi chala, aur mujhe anxiety hone lagi. Main idhar-udhar dekhne lagi, mind blank ho gaya, rone ka mann kar raha tha. Negative thoughts aane lage—sab khatam, parents ko kya bolungi, itni mehnat ke baad bhi main failure hoon. Thoda royi, head down kar liya, kuch samajh hi nahi aa raha tha.

Phir jaise-taise khud ko sambhala aur jitna ho saka utna attempt kiya. Lekin panic ki wajah se jo aata tha wo bhi galat ho gaya ya chhoot gaya. Chemistry was a complete shock—sirf 2–3 questions aate the, baaki kuch nahi. Maths mein 4 questions bane, aur 2 tukke lagaye.

Exam ke baad jab bahar aayi, parents saamne khade the, smile kar rahe the—unhe lag raha tha exam achha gaya hoga. Maine sach bata diya ki mujhse nahi ho paya. Car mein poora raasta roti rahi. Mumma bhi ro padi, papa ne situation handle ki.

Baad mein parents mujhe café le gaye, ice cream khilayi. Itna sab mess up karne ke baad bhi unhone mujhe ek bhi bura word nahi bola. Ye soch ke aur zyada rona aa gaya. I honestly don’t deserve them.

Mere majorly dosto ka 21 JAN ko paper tha exam ke phele i had solved it (memory based paper) mere 100+ EASILY aa ja rhe the i thought accha jaega par FUCK YOU NTA kal mujhe bhot s*idal thoughts aarhe the maine mumma ko bataya mere saath vo bhi emotional hogyi we both cried like hell

I dont know what to do anymor boards hai 20dino me par ab mere se nhi ho raha kuch
THANKYOU NTA FOR GIVING ME LIFE TIME TRAUMA🤲