Terrible Anxiety About My Crush

I don't want this to be happening, man. I just want to be left alone. I've been chipping away at my anxiety for years and this is the most anxious I have probably felt in a year. The thought of asking her out is driving me crazy dude why can't I just nkt feel this way? Why am I an idiot? I know that Im not good enough for a relationship yet I still crave one. What is wrong with me? I cant get it off my mind, man, like, jesus, what kind of psychosomatic psychopathic psychological torture is this? Its crazy, man. Maybe I'm crazy.