I can’t deal with it anymore

Im M16 and I have so many thoughts about suicide. I have this mind that never shuts up. Recently my mind has been on a rampage about suicide and why it’s so good and I can’t control it. Music always helps temporarily stop my mind but it always comes but. Now I have a ring box that doesn’t have a ring but instead a full thing off pills that is definitely enough to kill anyone that take them. I’ve already tried medicine and a therapist but I don’t like talking to people so a therapist didn’t work.

What should I do for help? I’m only 16 I’m scared I’ll fall to deep and end up doing it.