Im still unemployed, getting depressed, feeling lost, and I really want to let it out (and ask for advise na rin)

I resigned from my previous job last Sept 2025 since I was diagnosed with MDD and Panic Disorder, major factor ang stress and environment. Hindi ako yung team leader pero kasi salo ko lahat. Yung TL namin is naging TL kasi best friend sya nung ex-TL namin na nag-AWOL. And imagine, someone is being recognized for giving bare minimum, at ang taas pa ng sahod nya kesa sakin, but the hardest task sa dept namin, ako yung gumagawa. Plus, kargo ko pa yung mga newbie kasi ayaw akong tulungan ng mga tenured kasi di daw sila magaling magturo. Minsan, ipu-put ko on-hold ko si customer just to assist them kapag may tanong sila. Dahilan nung TL namin kaya ayaw nyang magpa-istorbo, busy daw sya. So I decided to resign kasi naubos ako.

And right now, I am thinking if it was a right decision kasi hanggang ngayon wala pa akong work even if I started sending my resumes on the first week of February, at sobrang dalang makakuha ng emails for interview.

Sobrang nada-down ako whenever hindi ako nakakakuha ng emails for interview. Pero hindi ko rin maintindihan yung sarili ko kasi ayoko na maging CSR, so whenever I am getting emails for CS, may part sa akin na ayokong puntahan. Or maybe the reason kung bakit ayokong puntahan kasi on-site sya, eh natatakot pa akong bumyahe. Literal na feeling ko mate-tegi ako. Nahihiya naman ako magpasama sa mother ko kasi ang tanda ko na lol :( And I know na if ever, I got accepted, mahihirapan rin ako sa work dahil sa mental state ko.

Plan ko mag-career shift, kaso at this state, alam kong mahirap. Most of the companies are just accepting individuals na may experience for that position na gusto kong makuha. So ang plans na meron ako ay;

a. look for a wfh job since di ko pa kayang bumyahe. kahit cs, okay lang sa akin basta wfh. b. once i got employed, i will look for a job na aligned sa career path na gusto ko which is content writing.

I just have some few questions tho;

1. Since I am having a hard time in getting a callback kahit sa CSR positions, I think there is something wrong with my resume. From Harvard template, I changed it into those trending Canva templates. Is that okay?
2. Can I also apply for my desired position (which is content writing) as I apply for CSR positions? My plan is to make another resume for it, kaso wala akong malalagay na experience connected to it, aside from my degree which is AB Journ, and yung internship ko sa isang local news paper, at radio station. Is it okay na ilagay ko yung experiences ko for CSR, or that would be irrelevant?
3. And about my portfolio, I have few write ups naman since writing articles is a part of our curriculum nung college, and I am revising it during my free time. Pero pano ko kaya sya ipe-present? Okay lang ba if sa Notion ko sya ilagay for compilation? I don’t really have any idea. :(

As of now, tinitibayan ko loob ko. My mom and my brother keeps on reminding me not to pressure myself kasi baka ma-stress na naman ako. May ipon naman ako na sakto lang, kaso kasi nakakapanliit pa rin ang maging unemployed na para bang wala kang karapatan mag-demand kasi wala kang ambag. Pero ayokong mapagod kasi goal ko talaga this 2026 ang maging maganda. At ang dami kong plan for my mom.

Hinihiling ko lang na sana dumating na yung big break ko. Buti na lang nage-exist ang My Humps by Black Eyed Peas kasi yun talaga pinapakinggan ko if I wanna feel good, or iiwas ang sarili ko for relapse hays. Pero pino-problema ko talaga yung pag-byahe kasi naaaligaga aq. 😓

Sorry if mahaba.