I hate being me

but what my fucking option?

so I post to Reddit because... what? nobody knows me. nobody who does know be fucking cares. so strangers here will send DMs that they do but we don't know each other so what's that even worth? my friends won't get it and my family.... I'm just a function. a means to get things done. I try and talk about what bothers me and it just ends up with me apologizing for what I've done. I hurt and I end up apologizing. every time .

so here I am

screaming into the void