Sudden panic at the feeling of losing ED

Do you ever feel like you're making progress with recovery then the sudden panic that the thoughts and control have gotten less set it and you feel the urge to become more restrictive and in control. Things were sort of ok, following the meal plan and even eating a little extra when hungry recently. But I felt like the ED was slipping away and I was less in control, less ED thoughts and I've panicked and just want to restrict. I just feel like I miss the structure and my rules. Does anyone feel this?