ftm - questioning impregnation and tradwife

Hi, this post is just about me and my situation. I'm asking myself more and more questions about this. I have a fetish for detransition and tradwife, and being pregnant excites me immensely. Seeing my body change, going back to see my loved ones and family with a round belly that shows everyone that a man got me pregnant with the man next to me, is extremely exciting. But will I ever do it? I don't know. I'm questioning my gender identity