Help, how do I finish???

Okay i’m about to get REAL vulnerable here with a bunch of strangers.. please be nice lol.

I remember distinctively the conversations I’d have with friends in high school about the concept of ‘finishing.’ one time I outright said it: “Idk if I’ve actually orgasmed before”. The only response I’ve received is that I’d know if I did. Well. Judging by the fact that I’m STILL questioning it to this day must mean I haven’t yet.

I feel like I’ve tried everything available to me. I’ve been using toys for years, I’ve tried penetration with fingers and with toys. I’ve tried clit stimulation with a vibrator. I’ve tried both simultaneously. I’ve touched myself in other places to try and get me going. I’ve watch porn, read it, listened to it.

It’s not that I feel nothing. It does feel good, but it stops at a certain point. There’s a nice build up but after some working at the clit I get to this small peak and suddenly it’s over. I don’t feel an afterglow or even satisfied half the time. Oddly enough, at the same time I’m too sensitive to keep going in search for a happier ending. Not sure why my body reacts like that but it’s been this way as long as I can remember.

I used to think that small peak was my orgasm until I learned apparently everyone else feels fireworks and explosions of ecstasy and pleasure. I haven’t reached that level yet. Am I missing something here? Is this literally it for me? Is everyone making orgasms a bigger deal than they actually are?

I will admit ONE thing. I am a penis virgin. Maybe that’s what I’m missing? Again, I’ve masturbated with penetration but only with myself. Maybe actual intercourse feels incredibly different and that’s what I’ve been missing all this time. I guess the only thing stopping me from figuring this out is that I’ve never been in a long enough committed relationship for sex to happen, and I’m not comfortable “selling” my body to men just to MAYBE experience a true orgasm. It’s all hypothetical anyway, assuming sex with a man is what I need. Not sure how much I’m willing to do to study that hypothesis.

So, if anyone has any other advice, suggestions or maybe just a hard truth I need to hear, all is appreciated. I’m just sort of at a point of sexual frustration. I’m getting somewhere but wherever it is, it isn’t enough. Please help!