i've been depressed and isolated since march 2020.

i literally just stopped going outside and using social media in 2020. march 13, 2020 i was in 10th grade and they said school was out for 2 weeks then it kept getting extended so i just dropped out and went to a charter school where i graduated early in my 11th grade year in late 2020. i have no real world experiences past that. i didn't go to prom. i never even gave college a thought. i never got a real job. i didn't learn how to drive. all i've done the past 6 years is rot in my room and help my parents pay the mortgage with a check i get for taking care of my disabled brother. the shame but more importantly the missed youth is fucking killing me. idk how to get back on track, my social skills are fucked, i don't have abs anymore from when i was in track and i always want to sleep. i freak out because i feel like i have to speedrun 6 years of progress into the next couple months before i go back out by making money online somehow. i also feel like i have to have some chiseled greek god body because last time everyone saw me i was a dreaded up trackstar with abs now im a skinny fat curlyhead😭 i can't believe 6 years i've been idle...i'm afraid to even show my face to my "friends" who never even noticed my absence. maybe i've ALWAYS been a loser. ugh. anyways is there anyone else out there who has lost years to depression and isolation? i'd like to hear how you made it out.