I'm at my lowest point in my life

Hey I’m posting this because I’m feeling completely overwhelmed, tired, and mentally drained. I’ve reached a point where I truly can't stand my life or my current situation anymore. I was really hoping 2026 would be more gentle, but only one month in, it’s already proven to be even harsher than before. I’ve been struggling with very dark thoughts and the urge to leave this life behind. I kept promising myself 'just one more day' or 'one more month' in hopes that something good would happen, but I’ve finally hit my limit. I feel like if I don’t reach out now, I’m going to lose my mind, especially since my physical health has already suffered so much.