Show me patience please

Show me patience, please

I am trying to learn

Show me kindness, please

I am trying to earn

I long ago learned to stand on my own

But everyone around me seems to have a hand to hold

To hold them up, to hold them close, to hold them dear

The touch of anyone is something I’m afraid I fear

So show me patience, please

I am trying to feel

Show me kindness, please

I am trying to heal

It is slow going, i am often standing still

I often have the mind but do not have the will

Why is it so hard, am I even trying?

I must be, I must be, why else would I be crying

Show me patience please

Does it matter in the end

Show me kindness please

I know you are my friend

I am trying I am trying i am trying I swear

But sometimes the weight is more than I can bare

Would you help me if I had the courage to call

I know I am strong enough to survive my own fall

I made sure of it long long ago

A scared child who saw his future down the road

I made myself exactly who I am right now

So all of this must be my fault some how

I made myself strong, resilient, stone

I knew I would be, so I chose to be alone

I knew it was coming, I heard it in his preaching

I knew it was coming, I heard it in her teaching

I never was seen, so I learned not to show

I never was encouraged, so I hid all my growth

I never was truly loved, so I learned not to care

At least I tried to, god I tried not to care

I tried not to, I tried not to, I tried not to, I tried not to

Show me patience please

If you can, if you dare

Show me kindness please

I am almost there

Show me kindness please

Even if this is as far as I can go

Show me patience please

I am trying to come home

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