I'm worried

I know angels are loyal to the Abrahamic God, and I don't really wanna worship him anymore. I'm worried about what happens after life, will I no longer see them anymore? Since I don't believe in their master.

I also made my own personal beliefs, renaming the angel, removing the Abrahamic God from his name but it's not exactly him anymore when I do that. Just a static nothing. I would say this is one of the reasons why I despise the Abrahamic God.

I don't know what to think anymore, this is just so confusing.