PGT-A results for me feeling like… 🥺

Hey guys, I’m back! I posted a couple of weeks ago while we were waiting for our results. Well, they are in. I have been crying pretty much non-stop since I got the message. 1 euploid a 4BB. That’s it. Just one. I am trying really really hard to be grateful for that one, because I know in my heart of hearts that we are lucky to even have one. I just can’t help but feel as though we have already lost and we are never going to be parents, and I’m never going to get to be a mother. If this doesn’t work that’s it. Our contract will be completed. We don’t have more money. We only get a 2nd egg retrieval covered in our fertility plan if this retrieval had yielded no euploids. How am I going to be able to relax at all going into this transfer knowing that this is it!? I’m not trying to sound ungrateful right now, I am just really in the pits of despair and this community has been such a beacon of hope and light for me. Thanks in advance to anyone responding to this.

For general info: I’m 39.75 y/o, no PCOS, no known fertility issues other than a miscarriage a year ago and then inability to get pregnant afterwards. Donor sperm from Cryos International. ER yielded 24 eggs, 16 mature, 15 fertilized, 8 day 5’s, 4 day 6’s, 1 euploid. The other 3 were aneuploid with Trisomy 19.