The house is sold. The hoard is still inside. Why do I feel like a criminal?

My mother passed away in December. It’s a Level 4 situation. Goat paths, bathroom barely functional, rooms I haven't stepped foot in since 2015.

I live three states away. When I flew down for the funeral, I stood in the living room with a shovel and a contractor bag, filled it with 20-year-old newspapers, looked at the mountain remaining, and just broke down. I couldn't do it. I physically and mentally could not spend the next 6 months sifting through wet cardboard to find "memories".

I made a snap decision last week. I stopped trying to interview estate liquidators (who all laughed at me) and just signed with a cash buying group (Home Options) that agreed to take the property "contents included".

The deal is: I take the photo albums and documents I can find, hand them the keys, and never look back. They handle the cleanout.

On paper, this is a miracle. I’m saving months of work. But now that closing is approaching, I feel physically sick. The thought of a crew coming in with shovels and just dumpster-ing my mom's entire life - even the trash - feels disrespectful. Like I'm erasing her existence because I was too weak to sort it myself.

Has anyone else taken the "nuclear option" and sold the house with the hoard still in it? Did the guilt go away once the check cleared? I feel like I need permission to just walk away.