I know deep down I'm not gonna make it past 30.

Just turned 30 last week and the problems only get worse, So yeah, if this is indeed it, right now I know I'm gonna miss living in this world because I never got to experience life's greatest things.

I know I don't want a funeral. I don't want them burying me because I don't need it even if what I think about is only bad intentions. just let my body rot somewhere.

Already said my goodbyes to my parents.

Money is indeed evil for me...