I wanna do a handstand but I'm scared of falling - more than normal

I've got a crazy fear of going off balance and falling just in general. Its a thing where even like being up 4 feet and looking down sends my head spinning. This feae does translate to trying to do a handstand

However, I'm stubborn as fuck. I wanna do a handstand and hold it well, if anyone knows how to progress through into doing a handstand while also dealing with this any advice would be great.

Yes, I know that everyone's obviously scared of falling and hurting themselves but what I'm talking about is a bit more intense but hey I'm stubborn and want to do a handstand