Stuck in a lukewarm cycle with an LO who calls every 2 weeks. I feel like I'm willing to try anything, even magic.

To summarise, my LO (Limerent Object) was into me so, so much when we met. She lost interest because of fights and my lack of communication.

When I confronted her, she gave me the "not ready for a relationship" line. I went No Contact, but she broke it 3 days later saying she wanted to be friends and "figure it out later."

We had massive ego clashes and didn't talk for a month. She called to congratulate me on an exam, then ghosted for another month. I broke and called her.

Now, things are "lukewarm." She calls me every 2 weeks for life updates. I haven't met her since September.

The problem is I want her badly. Like, I can go to any extent for her. I'm trying not to be a creep and call her daily, but l am desperate for her to be obsessed with me.

I'm so deep in this that I saw an Instagram reel about a visualization ritual (whispering in their ear while they sleep essentially) to make them obsessed, and I'm actually considering doing it. I just wanted to know if anyone else has felt this level of desperation where you start looking into rituals? I just want her to take the step.