Scared alone trauma panic attacks can’t be alone

Yo this June im 22 right now im scared idk what’s wrong with me i was stabbed last year near death experience now my anxiety sky high ever heart beat i feel low key sometimes wanna die den deal with it it freaks me out to be alone sometimes or be in public around people i freak out im scared feel like someone out to get me i feel like sometimes life feels fake it freaks me out too so much Shi idk i kinda wish i was normal im I alone ?