Do these dreams mean anything

Dear Arianne,

The last text I sent you before we blocked each other must’ve been about 4 or 5 years ago but I saw you again in my dream last night. I don’t know if dreams mean anything or if there is a reason you pop up in my dreams sometimes.

I don’t understand the reason, I don’t know what to think or if there is even anything to make of it but sometimes I see you and it’s almost like no time has passed and all these emotions and reactions surface and it confuses me.

I have loved other people in the past and they rarely come to mind, especially after I continue to move forward in my life. But the memory of you seems to find me easily and it makes a mess of my head that I don’t always know how to put back together.

I had the strangest dream last night. None of it made sense except that my heart sensed you were nearby and when you finally appeared I felt all the complicated and confusing feelings again. You, as elusive as always, needing help but refusing to let me close, and me, wanting to do make the world right just for you. That strange sensation like you are pulling my heart out of my chest by a cord. Like it’s my only chance and I have to do or say the right things and be perfect so you won’t run again.

People say that seeing people in dreams could mean they are thinking of you or calling to you in some way. Maybe somewhere deep inside I would want to believe that. I

think about you sometimes. I think that maybe you’ve forgotten me already. Maybe I was insignificant to you. Maybe you didn’t like me that much. Maybe you never loved me at all. I’m fine with that now and I hold no resentment.

Sometimes I wonder if you’re doing well. If your jokes are appreciated enough. If you get flowers for your birthday. If you get flowers on the anniversary of your mom’s passing. If you are comforted you when you cry. I hope you are happy. But I know the last thing I said to you was that you would never hear from me again and I am too damn proud to break that promise which is why I decided to put this out on here.

You be safe,

K