Panic zone is taking over the pleasure

So, I've been doing MDG for months now. I spent most of that time in Phase 5, waiting for that 'magical moment' where the panic stops and you start feeling pleasure during stimulation. Aside from a few brief moments back in October or November, I haven't been able to reach that state.

Three weeks ago, I decided to start Phase 6, hoping something would 'click' with the Fleshlight. The first week was tough, but by taking short breaks every few minutes and standing up (I know it's against the guide, but I feel more relaxed that way), I was able to thrust. However, I've noticed that during sessions, I'm feeling less pleasure and more panic-the exact opposite of what MDG is supposed to do.

While my breathing is better and my smartwatch data shows my heart rate is staying low and relaxed, my mind is a different story. It feels like a constant internal fight; my body is calm, but my brain is panicking about the arousal ramping up toward the PONR.

I don't fail during training, but I ejaculate during sex about once a month. I've been using numbing agents, but it feels like my PE has actually worsened since I started MDG. Numbing just the frenulum isn't enough anymore, and I still finish too fast.

I'm not giving up, of course. I might take a short break and restart from Phase 4. I honestly don't see any other solutions for PE, and I feel like I've tried them all. I just feel like garbage right now and needed to vent.