I genuinely don’t know what to do with my family

Im a 13 year old. Backstory. i was sick a few days back maybe like 2 weeks ago and i had symptoms like throwing up and shit. ( I have a phobia from throwing up) which triggered my food disorder. And caused me anxiety for days so I was scared to eat because I’m simply scared of throwing up. And everytime I get a simple stomach ache I get a full on panic attack.

Since I haven’t eaten my parents have basically tried to get me out my shell and eat to rid of my anxiety.. basically it didn’t work and it had been a week.. so they brought me to a hospital and got me drips and it worked for like 3 days till I had a simple stomach ache and I was scared all over again. My sister tried talking me out of it and telling me that vomiting wasn’t scary. And I searched up a lot of Reddit stories similar to mine to know if they had any advice. It didn’t work. Moral of the story my parents got really mad at me.

My dad works in another city so I’m left with my mom and older sister and I just got yelled at for being mentally unstable. They know I’m dealing with a food disorder and that it isn’t easy to fix and they’ve said it a few days ago themselves. Suddenly last night my mom just burst everything out on me, She told me I was practically useless and I was causing problems

(i caused her and my dad to fight) and that i should just stop this “act”. Which I genuinely don’t know how to I told them about all my anxiety in fact when I had panic attacks id go to her room so I would calm down. I don’t know what to do anymore I feel like they don’t understand anymore the first few days they were fine with me now they’re just sick of me and saying that I extended this matter for too long.. yes it’s been a while but you cant just possibly expect me to be fine in just a few days? I’m making some sort of progress and I believe in myself and that I’ll get over it I’m not too happy with myself for being sick or having a food disorder I don’t know how to deal with my mom said that I just wanted attention at this point and I wanted to skip school, Like?? I went to her for comfort then got yelled at for being useless. She tells me my older siblings experienced mental issues when they were in 12th grade (I’m guessing due to stress)

so basically when they were 18 and I had no reason to experience this now. I’m not doing this attention I’m trying to explain that. Just because I’m 13??!

I’ve skipped school for these past 2 days because I genuinely don’t have any power. I went to get drips again so I had some sort of power and I ended up going alone. sitting in a hospital bed alone talking or even making an appointment alone!! I don’t know if I’m over exaggerating this but I feel like I shouldn’t be alone at this time? She told me she had nothing to do with me and if the administrators of the school called her she wouldn’t go (because I was skipping school) despite the fact that I have a sick leave so it isn’t even for an unknown reason that am skipping school. She told me if I was to faint or if anything worse happened to me she would just call an ambulance and let me go alone and that she genuinely doesn’t want anything to do with me or my sickness anymore. What the hell am I supposed to do? For anything I don’t even understand myself or why I’m feeling this. I ended up apologizing to her for being a burden to her and she just replied once again “I don’t want anything to do with you” so I wrote her a whole ass paragraph explaining that I had no idea what was going on and I’m sorry if I caused problems and basically everything. I apologized sincerely despite that I personally think i had no reason to apologize ( she says I should try to feel what they’re feeling and that I’m putting them in problems. I swear if I could fix this I would??)

but I did apologize because I just don’t want anymore problems since they’re my only source of comfort.

Please just tell me the bitter truth I know I have to crawl out of my shell and start eating. I’ve been eating simple stuff not full meals so it isn’t completely nothing at all but I swear I’m trying. I’m not trying to victimize my self towards them. I just need to know if I’m in the wrong here and what to do to fix it. And if you have any advice about overcoming anxiety.