26 hours

Had to take some plain leaf to get to 3 hours of sleep last night. Took 6 caps before leaving for work and while I still have plain leaf in me I can already feel the grips of the numbed out soul and emotions loosening. Went and saw widespread panic on nye with Billy strings and it was the best show I have ever seen. Re listened to it this morning otw to work and was overcome with emotions of gratefulness, hope, and that weird nostalgia and yearning for something you can’t place your finger on. Crazy how while when using 7 I completely stop listening to what I love most which is music. The gummies I ate for sleep kicked in the shower and I had a huge realization of how bad I had been living, self will run riot. Hit my knees on the shower to thank God for mercy and it was like I was shown exactly what I need to do in life and that is be completely sober, put God first, and lead with love and help others. Feeling very optimistic rn and think the vit c and black seed is really giving me a kick. I’m aware I’m still on low dose of plain leaf but this goes to show that sometimes you just gotta make the step to try your best to get off 7. It is literally the devil in chemical form and would’ve continued to rip away my soul and finances if I didn’t make the step. Peace and love to everybody in this community!❤️