I keep turning to NDad for "help," even though I don't need it.

Hey guys,

So I am in a predicament. I know my NDad hurts me. I know he abuses me. I know he must be doing it on purpose because I've tried talking to him endlessly about it my whole life but it continues. But I have a mental illness which, when it is happening, around my menstrual period (sorry tmi), leaves me feeling very helpless and vulnerable, and I always end up turning to him for "support." Of course, he never has anything to say that I don't already know or that I couldn't tell myself, but for some reason, I need to hear it from someone else so I go to him. This keeps me dependent on him. I really want to be able to not need him for ANYTHING and want to be able to move out of his home eventually. Right now, he is trying to make me live with him until he dies, which I feel is really unfair and depriving me of an adult life of my own.

Any advice?