15yo | idk what to do need some suggestions
Hi everyone. I am an 11th grader and I just need to rant a bit because my studies are completely messed up right now.
I used to be a really good student. Like genuinely good. Class 8 tak sab sahi tha. Then I changed schools and class 9 mein thoda bigad gaya, but from class 9 onward things got better. Class 10 mein I was fully back on track, boards mein bhi decent grades aaye. So I thought I was doing fine academically.
But everything changed after boards, i am into security ( cybersec & bughunting stuffs )
I got an internship, then a full time job, left that, switched to a better company, switched again. Right now I have contracts with companies valued at idk, millions of dollars & work at a pretty good company. I make way more than my teachers. I also have a small startup in stealth, we just hit 100 users a few days ago and raised around $10k in angel checks, and we will probably raise more in the coming weeks.
Boards ke baad ye sab hua in my life. Bahar se dekhne par everything looks perfect. Parents are proud, sabko lagta hai life sorted hai. Par real problem ye hai ki meri padhai last shit ho gayi hai.
Marks ekdum ghat gaye hain. Padhne ke liye time almost zero ho gaya hai. Jitna main pehle 1 mahine mein padhta tha shayad, utna maine poore class 11 mein nahi padha aisa lagta hai. And class 11 is hella tough, at least for me, bahot tough. I do not even know what happened to me.
First term mein i did some hella insane cool stuffs, so marks ghatne par bhi I was like thik hai, second term mein pakka better karunga. Par aaj chemistry ke marks dikhaye gaye and I got like fkin 38 out of 75 ( bro 1st term bigadne par 40/50 aaya tha chem mein). Thoda marks nahi diya hai jahan milna chahiye tha, wahan se badhaya to maybe 41 or 42 aayega. Par honestly ab marks badhane jane ka bhi mann nahi hai, kaisa hawa feel hota hai.
Rn am at my kaisa low point idk whatt to do aur mujhe nahi lagta physics aur math mein bhi waisa kuch khaas aayega like Broooo, i feel so bad kaisa nahi padha maine if i had studied isse far better grades aate, I feel like shit like am js a kid ani i am so into dis and all ki i can't leave this if i leave this everything is gone ab toh due to contracts, company yahan wahan it's impossible aur in coming months it will be way harder for me to give time studies ko.
I want to be better. I want to be the fu*king best at studies, at life, at everything. But right now I have no idea what to do or how to fix this. How the fk do I actually get better?
Aaj I talked with my mom and told her we raised 10k at a good valuation. She was happy. Mummy ko startup ki full details pata nahi hai, papa ko bhi nahi. Aur uske baad I was like ab kis muh se mummy ko bataun ki chemistry mein 38 out of 75 aaya hai and baaki subjects mein bhi shitty grades aa sakte hain.
I feel like shit man. I know ye post padhne par pura god complex wala hawa bacha jaisa lag sakta hai, and honestly maybe I am that. I am just a kid. I will get better, I have to get better. Right now I am just mad, frustrated, exam khatam hua, and I keep thinking pehle main best student tha, abhi everything flipped.
I honestly just need some suggestions, and if possible, maybe a few encouraging words or something.
Posted Jan 27, 2026, 1:50 PM UTC