I want to runaway but I’m in college

I’m 19f and I want to runaway, I’ve thought about it for a while but always been to scared to be alone but I feel alone all the time anyway so I’m getting more comfy with the idea.

im in college and I dorm with my sibling(not the college I wanted to go to but my mom kind of insisted) I would leave a note just to say that I’m not missing. I think

it’s not that I hate my family, I just can’t spend my time surrounded by people who push me to the side and treat me like I’m insane. i fantasize about dying and leaving them notes so I can finally be heard without worrying about them ignoring me.

For months they’ve been telling me Im mean and I can feel all the resentment building up and seeping out of me. It’s hard to stomach being kind to people I don’t feel like consider me even though I love them. I think they think they consider me but I don’t think they do.

I can’t drive(no one will teach me) and I constantly feel like luggage being toted around. my mom has been helicopterish my whole life and I feel like if I don’t get away I won’t know true independence till Im dead. it’s like she wants to follow me everywhere, and if she can’t she wants to send my siblings like scouts. she doesn’t take what I say into account so I’ve stopped trying to be heard.

I have enough money for a flight out of state(maybe two) but the nearest airport is an 1 hour out of my college town, would that be an insane walk i don’t think I could find an uber willing to take me so far.