I’m not really sure what to do now.

For context, I’ve had my bearded dragon Gary my whole life. My family got him before I was born and I’ve never not had him there. He passed about an hour ago, probably natural as he was atleast 19. Not that it is that relevant but im also neurodivergent and don’t know how to deal with losses, as like when a relative passed a few years ago I just wasn’t sure how to feel. But with the relative every few months I just think of them and get upset. I’m worried I will feel upset when I think of Gary and I don’t know what to do. I honestly don’t know what im asking in this I just don’t know how to deal with this situation and move on. I know we will end up burying Gary with his favorite blanket so that’s nice. But I also know my parents will be getting rid of his vivarium which makes me sad. I’ve only ever had one pet pass, and that was my chameleon Reggie. But as horrible as this sounds we didn’t have him as long as Gary, and after Reggie passed we still had Gary. Now there’s no Gary and no Reggie. Also for context this makes me sound like a child, im 16, I just struggle with emotions