I have nothing to talk about these days (and nothing of value)

Socially, I'm gonna retreat entirely to probably enter the last chapter of my so-called "life"

I had fallen off this reality in 2025 and my (already scarce) skills in all three the most significant subsets of life (social, vocational/practical, financial) were basically obliterated and I can no longer cope with that realisation, which means I have nothing appealing to offer (I'm literally a parasite with no contributions given to this society)

If my abilities were at least plausible in one of the aforementioned subsets, I would have a reason to go on (also, therapy works when you have a starting point to branch out) so then and only then if you lack skills of 2/3 these areas at most

BUT if you're not capable of navigating at least one of these, there's no hope (nothing to hold onto, nothing to add something else on)

How could you build a house with no foundations? You cannot

I have no value whatsoever (even subjective)

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I. Socially, I've lost too many people due to not living up to others' expectations and I'm too boring individual to interact with

• I can't get new friends because I've entered the stage of life where-in everyone's settling down, and they all "peaked" in early-20s (therefore, in mid-20s they're secured and fulfilled in this social subset, they already have built their circle of reciprocal support)

II. Vocationally/practically, I am unable to graduate and I worked only briefly in some negligible and irrelevant jobs (nothing to add to my CV)

• I have non-existent attention span and I'm susceptible/liable to NOT meeting the most fundamental needs and essential responsibilities of day-to-day life
• I don't do anything of value that would make me fulfilled, haven't accomplished anything (there's nothing in me to attract other people, no assets to get a job)

III. Financially, as a result of everything I've said, neither can I sustain myself nor earn a living (no salary, no wage, no means to live without external help)

• I'm ashamed of my life because of being such a failure who can't catch up on (as days pass by, the likelihood of getting any possibilities or money to maintain this life decreases exponentially)

I have no reason, except for superficially extending this existence as an empty shell (I'm hovering/floating around with no tangible or societal objectives)

Who and what should I do it for?

I have something highly important going on in this life which hinders and makes it too difficult to bear (that's why I have to make up for it by other strengths but I have none) so I've given up on this and my life as well