I don't even know what the point is

I go to work and my "friends"say such nasty things to me. I go home and my wife yells at me within five minutes. I don't understand why people like this, why being hurt and hurting other people is enjoyable. I hate it, I hate it so much. I'm not meant for this world. my heart is different than everyone I've met and I just don't want to be alone anymore. I hate just having myself in a world I hate and that terrifies me