I want to quit bedside

First exposure ko 'to as a newly-passer last May and I feel like our head nurse makes everything tough on my end. Almost two months na.

No shadowing or formal lecture since public hospital, and I'm doing everything I could to learn everything pero her method was instilling fear sa utak namin. Even with that procedure na wala akong idea since bago pa lang, I know mali ako and I redeemed myself to it na, pero to shame me in front of my co-worker during endorsement and make fun of it after ko umuwi what's not making it right. Then she threatens me my contract won't be extended if that continues instead of encouraging me to be better, her verbatim “pasensyahan tayo ah, I'll give you another month, una 'yung procedure then you always saying po during endorsement”.

Kaya hindi ko rin maiwasam isipin na even my co-nurses conspires sa kanya.