Im in serious need of help. I dont habe anyone and its really cold. I dont habe anyone else to ask for help. $Scuzbucket36

So since last June of last year ive been struggling. I lost my job, started living in a hotel and slinging dope. 3 weeks is all it took for them to have the feds run in on me. Went to jail for 2 months, mu brother jn law bonded me out and I was suppose to go to a halfway house and decided to dip out. .only took a month's to realize thats not what I want. I left and went 10 hours away yo rehab. I completed the entire of the program, and felt like a new start.. while I was there a lady. THE LADY. We had a convo and I literally only came back for her. We have apent maybe a whole 4 days out of the time I got off the bus to now. Maybe a 5 weeks. . Anyway ive lost everything not once but twice. Ive turned down opportunities and severed friendships to prove that what I wanted. I dont say that lightly ive done some shit im not proud of and I jabe to carry around for years to come, bit the consequences are hideous. . Like its cold. I start a job monday at the hospital. I need some help or imma freeze.. please. Cashapp is $Scuzbucket36