You know how in dreams you sometimes feel very strong emotion that you still have even woken up?

So yea, tonight a dream decided to remind me how lonely I have felt.

I was a student and we all of course during holidays would go back to our families. I had depression at that time, so it made it worse. But still it doesn't negate that fact that where I would be coming back, there were no friends.

Everyone in uni would come after holidays and share how exciting it was to meet again eith all their friends. And I hated that time.

I lived in a small town (a village actually, so it's really small.) When I was going to school we had 10 people in our grade. So I would go back to this small town and spend all my time at home. And dream so perfectly recreated the emotion... I would sit inside and would wish so much to go out and do something fun but I had no one I could call... It's not helping that even now I have only one friend. So the reminder of that feeling is making me spiraling now too...

Anyway, thanks dream...