Are there any shunned / disowned children here?

I'm not going to go into all of the details. But long story short, I feel like i'm going insane from psychological manipulation. I'm 24 now and i'm living on my own means. I often wonder if the best thing for me to do is to just say "fuck it" and abandon my family, in fact, i've been having this thought since I was like 5 years old and I was constantly running away just to get out of the family situation. However, my fear is that I will regret it in a large way. Like the guilt will catch up to me one day.

My sister was recently "disowned" for marrying a white man. My mom calls me constantly to rant endlessly about how horrible she is, how much she hates her, and also how it's all my fault (apparently, because I was rebellious my whole life, every time my siblings do something wrong it's all my fault because I influenced them). She doesn't care about anything thats happening in my life, she only wants to talk about how much she hates my sister for her supposed betrayal. All she ever did wrong was marry a guy.

My parents don't care about anything I do. The only desire they have for me is that I marry a good muslim man. I haven't believed in Islam for about a decade and i'm not sure I believe in marriage either. They truly don't give af about anything I accomplish if it's not marrying a good muslim man. When I lived at home, they would remind me of this on an almost daily basis.

I remember when I was a teen my mom would say that she wishes I was dead, that whenever I left the house she would pray that I got hit by a car or something so that God could just take me off of her hands. Of course, if I try to hold her accountable for the things she has said she denies it. But I remember. When I moved out they begged me to come back. But I can't go on pretending i'm ok with this dynamic: being an unwanted child, yet simultaneously imprisoned

Sorry, i'm getting side tracked. All I wanted to ask for was just some perspective if there's anyone who either willingly abandoned their parents or was disowned