Thinking About Things I Wish I Could Say

We were friends for 16yrs and when she recently contacted me through a random phone number it really threw me off. After all this time, though, it was really those text messages that made me do a deep dive on how this friendship really affected me. It led me to find this page and to consider how I was mentally and physically changed, and how I can truly improve myself now that I have cut her off for good this time. It is funny how her attempt to hurt me has led to a deeper understanding of how to heal, even though it did hurt as well.

I think about all the absolutely terrible situations I was put through and stuck around for. Sometimes I wish I could tell her the laundry list of horrible experiences, but I know it doesn't matter. She wouldn't care and would blame it on her condition and events in her life. Just venting, thanks for listening.