Paranoid because of what I've found out

Problem/Goal: Paranoid because of what I've found out

Context: Hello, I have a boyfriend and next month (February) is supposedly our 1st anniversary. But this January, I have my instincts kicking up. It felt like nagiging less na 'yong maayos na conversation namin, parang ako nalang nag i-initiate makipag usap. Parang nawawalan na sya ng gana saakin. Meanwhile ako naman parang nag b-beg na ako for his attention. Last January 26, nag download ako ng Strava just to found out na meron syang history doon so I asked him if sa account ko sya naki logged in and he said yes. I dunno why pero pumasok sa utak ko na icheck ang history sa Gmail na 'yon only to find out na he's using Litmtch (where we met before), IG, TG, and Snapchat. Month of November last year sya nag start sa Litmatch and, Snapchat, and Telegram and noong September pa 'yong Instagram nya. Gumawa ako ng kwento wherein I asked him if he still has his Instagram account or if he has Telegram and he denied it. Sinabi pang Tiktk lang meron sya. I dunno what to do. I didn't feel anything when I found out.

This time napa-paranoid ako. He's currently at Pasay with his friends kasi mag hahakot lang daw sila ng gamit netong friend and tomorrow pa uwi nila. Mga chats ko lang ay sent. I've tried calling him pero wala. It's very unusual na sent lang messages ko kasi kahit saan magpunta 'yon naka on lagi ang data kaya delivered lahat kahit pa tulog sya. I've got this gut feeling na nag bar or umiinom sila. Or may mas worst na nangyayari

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